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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|08:34 pm] |
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My dad is in the hospital again...
Hes been in there almost 2 weeks, just for a little surgery that went totally wrong
I guess doctors CAN really screw up
Well he has an infection now
I went to go see him today for the first time in 2 weeks, and hes really bad
His eyes are deep
Hes lost nearly 50 lbs
Hes all wired up and has tubes in his arms, no just those little needles, TUBES 1/4 inche wide tubes
We went to go see him today.
My mom was telling him that he shouldnt eat so that the infection doesnt get worse...
He got mad and didnt want us there...
So we left.
Total time elapsed at the hospital: around 10 mins....thats including getting food and parking and all that shit
Goddammit....
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[Sep. 16th, 2005|09:03 pm] |
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well...recently i have been having massive problems. last year i moved out of the house i grew up in, the house where everyone had their own breathing space and the one i loved so much. i now live in a very small 3 room appartnemt down the street from granada on Lindly Ave. it SUCKS ASS. everyone gets irritated with eachother cuz we'rea always around eachother. my mom arranged the place so that my dad has his own room cuz my mom doesnt want to look at him. everytime she sees him sitting on the couch watching TV she gets to pissed and starts getting all bitchy on everyone, even if we didn;t do anything. so bassically my dad only comes out of that room to go to the bathroom, eat, or if she isnt home. last night i was up late doing homework while my mom was out working, or atleast i think she was working, but then at around 11pm she came home and found me at the computer desk trying to analize Hamlet. she started yelling at me to go to bed, even though i didnt finish it, i mean, Hamlet is like THE HARDEST thing to do...so i did as usual and went to bed. if i tried to tell her that i had to finish my homework, she would has litteraly slapped me. she has been so bitchy lately, every little thing sets her off. the worst part is is that i didnt finish my other homework: study for bio test, math homework, and health homewrok. and today i found out some of my grades. turns out that its not too great, Health: C / Biology: C / Spanish: D / Math: FAIL / and i think i have a fail in english. i have to keep a 2.0GPA to play on the basketball team, so i think im not going to b playing for a while...this fukin sux. so im so fukin woried about my mom seeing my report card. i really dont know whats making me slip. but the thing is is that i have nobody to tell that really cares, my dad kinda cares,but not really. he just tries to make it look like he cares so that my mom doesnt get mad at him. my friends...i dunno what to think. i have never really had true solid friends, just...friends. you would think that being on a team that you would all b one friendly group and mess around, but these guys always say shit about me. so im kinda just like hanging out behind them alone. so right now all the friends i have are mike and tyler. tylers acting wierd now, i think he has something wrong with his head, and mike..i dunno about mike. i have also had 2 suicidal dreams. i was saved by some girl in one of them, and the other scared me so much that i woke up in a cold sweat, i was trembling and crying when i woke up. sometimes i wonder if i am accually going to do it or not. it scared me to think that i might. i really dont want to. i dont know what to think anymore,i dont know what to do. |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2005|11:29 pm] |
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life fukin sux now... |
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[Jun. 22nd, 2005|09:36 pm] |
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Today i have come to the conclusion that my life is officialy going at a 90 degree angle downhill, again. The last time was when i got forced out of my house and every happy moment, feeling, memory, and dream went away in less than 4 days. now, things are getting worse. I have stopped doing my math homework and i now have a D u s in math. I know my mom is going to throw every single balistic missile at me, but the only thing i can say to her is om sorry, the rest she will not understand. I would say its because of that dreded move into this puny appartment were everyone gets so irritated or eachother because of the little space eachone has, but she wont understand...she will just say that i am not responsible and that this computer is taking over me and that i need to get some common sense. but we will not get into and further discussion with that subject. so now i guess i just have to ride the storm and hopefully find the everlasting eye. things will get better, i know, but i kinda need it soon. this hole in me needs to b filled.....or something bad will happen. |
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[Jun. 4th, 2005|10:03 am] |
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lol my journal is so boring, COMMENT ANT TELL YOUR FRIENDS TO COMMENT!!!!!! |
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[May. 29th, 2005|12:35 am] |
The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire,
The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire,
The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire,
We don't need no water let the motherfucker burn,
Burn motherfucker burn.
Hello my name is Jimmy Pop and I'm a dumb white guy,
I'm not old or new but middle school fifth grade like junior high,
I don't know mofo if y'all peeps be buggin' give props to my ho cause she all fly,
But I can take the heat cause I'm the other white meat known as 'Kid Funky Fried',
Yeah I'm hung like planet Pluto hard to see with the naked eye,
But if I crashed into Uranus I would stick it where the sun don't shine,
Cause I'm kind of like Han Solo always stroking my own wookie,
I'm the root of all that's evil yeah but you can call me cookie,
The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire,
The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire,
The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire,
We don't need no water let the motherfucker burn,
Burn motherfucker burn.
lol, i love this song :) |
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[May. 28th, 2005|10:04 am] |
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*yawn* i just woke up and i feel like shit, ON A 3 DAY WEEKEND, WTF!!!! o well, (get well soon kyle!), thanks kyle! nobody reads this so i guess that i will talk to myself! :) |
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[May. 27th, 2005|08:35 pm] |
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does anyone read this? |
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[May. 24th, 2005|02:31 pm] |
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Love a person, hate the bad things they do..... |
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[May. 16th, 2005|09:07 pm] |
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lol so nobody knows me cept alex, well atleast i know i have friends lol, or atleast one friend :) ok so this Livejournal thing, im supposed to get more comments? we'll see. peace! |
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[May. 15th, 2005|09:26 am] |
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ok so i just got up, i gotta go to basketball tryouts in like 2 1/2 hours. see, tryouts are funny, if u do bad then ur placed on a kinda good team, and if u do good, ur placed on a bad team that needs ur help.....fuk. but i dun wanna do bad. o well, we'll see how it goes. so, whats up with u? |
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[May. 14th, 2005|11:18 pm] |
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i need to make my journal look better lol |
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[May. 13th, 2005|09:01 pm] |
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ok so i made a livejournal cuz ppl say its "the best" so i gave in and did it. now what? |
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